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The History of My Life
I am sometimes afraid to look back at these older entries and examine my past. I'm afraid I'll edit it, try and change what I said or thought to make it nicer or more reflective of the present. But other times, I'm proud of who I was, and wouldn't change a word of it.

No matter what happens in my life, I don't want to lose track of what I was. Because if I do, I think I'll lose track of who I am, and then where will I be?

Who Are They?
Adam: My ex boyfriend. Best friend, lover, confidant, someone whom I will love till the end of my life. Things would be easier with this breakup if I hated him... but I don't.
Mathew: My current boyfriend, and someone I've trusted with many of my secrets. I don't doubt his love for me, but some times I'm overwhelmed by the intensity of it.
Kit: Another close friend whom I adore. Sadly, things in his life fell apart, and he took parts of my life with it. He's only beginning to get things back together. I miss him more than I can express.
Rick: Closer than pain, dearer than life. A complicated and intimate friendship, one that cannot be explained by words. I love him, but I hate too many of his actions to ever forgive him.

The Beginning
After the Breakup....
Loving Mathew
Leaving Mathew

2003-08-14 - Things we regret
2003-08-12 - Nothing left to say...
2003-08-09 - Hiding Truths
2003-08-06 - -
2003-08-01 - sad enough
2003-07-30 - Friends
2003-07-28 - I have nothing important to say and I'm going to make you read it
2003-07-28 - When to sleep...
2003-07-28 - People Watching
2003-07-27 - A Visit With Adam
2003-07-24 - Business Thoughts
2003-07-22 - Worried
2003-07-22 - Profound Thoughts
2003-07-11 - Vent - Avoid Me!
2003-06-11 - Numb
2003-05-13 - Petty Gossip
2003-05-10 - Yay!
2003-05-05 - Saturday 8
2003-05-03 - Kit
2003-05-02 - Done Ranting, but Still Lonely
2003-04-27 - Power
2003-04-14 - ---
2003-04-12 - Lost
2003-04-07 - Crazy
2003-03-29 - Lessons
2003-03-26 - A Primer on my Job
2003-03-23 - A Good Time For Most
2003-03-21 - Quit
2003-03-18 - Privacy and Food
2003-03-15 - Revelation!
2003-03-09 - Advice
2003-03-08 - Rude People and Ranting
2003-03-05 - Job Fulfillment
2003-03-03 - Fear
2003-03-03 - Online Communities
2003-03-03 - Thoughts on Love
2003-03-03 - Expectation of Privacy?
2003-02-15 - A long song related entry
2003-02-14 - Valentine's day!
2003-02-03 - Started out as something different
2003-02-01 - Scared of the Dark, an Insomnia Story
2003-01-29 - Thought on Marriage
2003-01-28 - Irrational Enough for One Evening
2003-01-26 - A Letter
2003-01-26 - Stupid Irrational Anger
2003-01-20 - Anticipation
2003-01-12 - Statements that should be examined....

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