The History of My Life
I am sometimes afraid to look back at these older entries and examine my past. I'm afraid I'll edit it, try and change what I said or thought to make it nicer or more reflective of the present. But other times, I'm proud of who I was, and wouldn't change a word of it.
No matter what happens in my life, I don't want to lose track of what I was. Because if I do, I think I'll lose track of who I am, and then where will I be?
Who Are They?
Adam: My ex boyfriend. Best friend, lover, confidant, someone whom I will love till the end of my life. Things would be easier with this breakup if I hated him... but I don't.
Mathew: My current boyfriend, and someone I've trusted with many of my secrets. I don't doubt his love for me, but some times I'm overwhelmed by the intensity of it.
Kit: Another close friend whom I adore. Sadly, things in his life fell apart, and he took parts of my life with it. He's only beginning to get things back together. I miss him more than I can express.
Rick: Closer than pain, dearer than life. A complicated and intimate friendship, one that cannot be explained by words. I love him, but I hate too many of his actions to ever forgive him.
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The Beginning
After the Breakup....
Loving Mathew
Leaving Mathew
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