Who am I Usually?
Who am I Today?
Who was I before?
I'm 25 going on 26, and after 5 years and a public engagement, my fiance and I broke up. Life fell apart after that, and I caught myself falling hard for a friend of mine. Now, I'm dating my friend Mathew while trying to deal with Adam's repeated attempts to win me back. Don't forget that Kit and Rick have also both expressed an interest in dating me. Some where in all of this, I think I might find myself.
Or not...
Time: 5:25 p.m.
Date: 2004-05-17
Where am I?: At home.
Who's Nearby?: The music.
What am I feeling?:introspective
What do I want?:To live a life without fear.
2004-06-26 - Dread
2004-05-17 - not a good idea
2004-02-23 - Letter to Adam (unsent)
2004-01-29 - China means NOT Canada
2004-01-02 - Homesick
2004-05-17 - 5:25 p.m.
I just got off the phone with Mathew.
A large number of people are attempting to ensure we never live together again. He said "A lot of people think we're very bad for each other."
This was a very painful thing, and I wish he hadn't said it.
Mostly because the conversation turned to him saying that he agreed with them. We are very bad for each other, and probably shouldn't live together.
I wish he hadn't said this. Even if it's true, I wish he hadn't said this. I don't want to think about this right now. I don't want to be sitting here mourning whatever it is that we may or may not have had.
