Who am I Usually?
Who am I Today?
Who was I before?
I'm 25 going on 26, and after 5 years and a public engagement, my fiance and I broke up. Life fell apart after that, and I caught myself falling hard for a friend of mine. Now, I'm dating my friend Mathew while trying to deal with Adam's repeated attempts to win me back. Don't forget that Kit and Rick have also both expressed an interest in dating me. Some where in all of this, I think I might find myself.
Or not...
Time: 11:44 a.m.
Date: 2004-01-02
Where am I?: At home.
Who's Nearby?: The music.
What am I feeling?:introspective
What do I want?:To live a life without fear.
2004-06-26 - Dread
2004-05-17 - not a good idea
2004-02-23 - Letter to Adam (unsent)
2004-01-29 - China means NOT Canada
2004-01-02 - Homesick
2004-01-02 - 11:44 a.m.
I thought I saw you in Shanghai.
I was on the bus, about to cross the river, staring out the window. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw you. You were wearing my favorite coat, walking purposefully towards a building near my bus, and even though it's impossible, I thought...
How did he get to Shanghai? How did he happen to be here when I'm here? What is he doing here? I love you....
I almost opened the window of the bus to call your name before I got a better look at the man.
He walked liked you, and had your coat, but he wasn't you.
And that's when I realized that I was homesick.
